Thought

Yet again I Am hit by insomnia and spend the night awake. It has, on the upside, given me alot of time to think. Recently life hasn't been going exactly how I want it to, yet still I seem to be able to retain my sanity. This led me to think about, ironically the thought process' in the brain. There have been times in the past where I have been genuinely depressed, yet this doesn't seem to be one of them. This led me to believe that when you can accept something, your brain takes a more logical approach to things and says 'hey, it'll blow over soon enough', rather than when it is more of a shock (e.g. When life is going good and something bad happens, your brain panics and depression and confusion take a hold. We all seem to under estimate our brains power, considering the amount of hardware it's running, all at once might I add, and stil leaving us the spare processing power to think, to feel emotion, yet still be so untapped that we use little of it. When a string of bad things happen and life isn't going your way, our brain gets used to the processing of dealing with the information, as it has saved the bests way to deal with it due to the previous experience, making it ten times easier to block out emotions that would cloud judgement. On the otherhand, if something bad happens after a string of good, shock and panic set in. Your brain has been used to processing good information and emotion, that when the bad happens it literally doesn't have a clue what to do....

Negatives and Positives

Have you ever noticed how it seems to be all the little things that make you smile. The first rays of sun in the spring or the smile on the faces of those who you truly care about. It just makes you smile right? But it's something so insignificantly small it seems all too idiotic for it to make you happy. But maybe it's not. Think about this. Our world is a giant negative, something so negative that small positives begin to make you feel even better than they normally would. But here's another thing. In chemistry, positive and negative are attracted, and the larger one of the two are, the more of the other is needed to fill its chemical structure. So if our world is a giant negative, thousands of these small little positives should be needed to fill it, but with these positives occasionally a negative may already be bonded, so with that good thing we get a negative, but it's dwarfed by the positive so we take no notice of it. But as soon as it hits the earth, the gravity of the negative is finally realised. So in this world of giant negatives, and little positives, with occasional negatives combined, why do we get big positives, like love? That's easy to explain. It's a chain of these lot's of little positives, each one of which representing a small part of that person. A smile, a laugh, their personality. They all add up making us feel great, making that giant negative called earth, bearable to live in.

Kindheart

In the world there are those very few people who are so incredibly kind, that even seeing them makes you smile. Some times I'm told I'm one of those people, but I don't believe it. There are a few people like that who I know... One of them... Lets call him Gerald Marx, he may be one of those weirdo's, but I don't care, he makes me smile and laugh no matter how down I am. Another, lets call her.... Crow, funny as hell, down and depressed NO LONGER! Second to last, Cross. Makes me smile and cheers me up, and finally Ma-meido, makes me happy just being around her. All of these guys have stuck through my crap, so even though they call me kindheart, I know they're the true kindhearts.

Beginnings and Endings

Life seems to be very much so full of beginnings. Whether it's the start of a new life, a new friendship, relationship, or, in this case, blog. But this is also means many things must end, as goes the phrase 'All good things must come to an end'. How many things can we attribute that to though? Recently I've gotten out of a relationship. If you ask me or her, it was a good thing, but now it's ended. Life, supposedly, will eventually end, yet another good thing to our list. But what about music? Our favorite song must eventually come to an end no matter how long it is. I mean my friend, his favorite song is 2112 by Rush, which is roughly.... a hell of a long song, BUT it still ends, right? There's nothing we can do to prevent this ending, it is inevitable, whether it's the ending of a song, or the ending of life. This surely means that everything is good though... Does the phrase work backwards? All things that end are good? That's just something to dwell on.